How are you this evening? It's Monday night about 11:00 pm as I type this and I'm sitting with a half a cup of lukewarm coffee and settled creamer, iPhone to my side and 70s Lite Rock playing on the stereo.
I had the chance to take a gander at the ratings for this very blog from our last entry "Breaking The Silence (Part 1)" and astonishingly, that entry broke the record on this blog for being the most read entry. It does not surprise me, I have to say!
I love that you all have such an intimate view into my life. I really do. Now, the part is that I don't like nosey people or people that try to pry into my business.
I feel like blogging became such a big deal to me because I was always writing in a journal or writing a column or a poem and I wanted to take the facade down of being a stuffy writer or a fashion writer years ago and open my life to people that not only came to me in the salon, but to strangers on the internet that sometimes find my adventures more fascinating that sometimes I even do.
In the age of reality tv and tweeting, there are no secrets as you know!
Now, to get back where we left off: I talked about moving on from someone very close to me and I think that mostly the ratings were due to people wanting to know the "juicy" details and sadly, even after I re-read my own blog, I can't say that there's any. In fact, even when I try to divulge the naked truth these days, I try to hold the other person up with a little dignity because I know I would want the same... even if he is just some dirty son of a bitch!
LOL.
So, onto what I've been up to:
1. COMEDY
I have taken up a few new things that make me very happy and one of them is stand-up comedy.
I literally just got the whim one time to attempt it and failed miserably the very first time. I have now after some time (about six months) have my form down and have found my voice. I laugh because what I used to tweet and say in blogs I now save for the mic on Wednesday nights and I have to tell you: that's a fun hobby to me.
I don't have aspirations of being Joan Rivers in the next decade, but I also don't knock others for being passionate about pursuing it as a full-time gig!
I think if you're a good writer, have a great grasp of the English language and timing, you're gonna be fine. The performing aspect is where people fall flat! You HAVE TO bring energy and you HAVE TO be able to read an audience and get them involved.
Years ago, before I was an art school student, I was a performer! My background was in improv comedy and writing screenplays and original scripts and performing one-man shows. I was also a dancer when I was younger and as I step on stage Wednesday nights, I channel 16/17/18/19 year old Josh and relive it the energy of being funny and getting someone's attention for five minutes.
When I worked hair shows and classes and present at events locally, I still get the same sense of accomplishment.
For me, once a week, I still get butterflies.
I like that. I like the feeling of having a rumbly tummy and sweaty palms before going up. I LIKE telling inappropriate jokes and having wine with the crowd after and talking. Their smile radiate back and I love having that energy given back.
Laughter to me is one of the purest forms of love. Comedy has brought back my love of performing.
2. BLOGGING
I have to be honest.... taking a 10 week break from blogging felt good. It also affected my tweeting and facebooking habits. learned that social media is just that! It's fun, but REAL people is where it's at!
Yes, I love the attention!
Yes, I love that people read both blogs.
Yes, "Rockstar Slums" has 30,000 readers a month.
I love a more honest form of blogging though. I love THIS essay style of writing and do not love the product reviews or magazine-style format anymore and have decided that come fall 2014, I will be ending "Rockstar Slums" officially.
There's two reasons for this:
1. The Studio JRy blog is where my heart is at and more honest to WHO I AM (you're reading that now) --- also, I want to finishing editing my manuscript officially this year and too many projects and people have stifled the creative process for me.
2. "Rockstar Slums" was named by the person I described in the last entry. I don't want to continue on with a project that reminds me of him. I think I want to end on a high-note and end shortly after my birthday next month. I think it's time to search for another column opportunity as well... I would like to shop the idea of a new column to a few publications and freelance for a paper again or a larger blog as a contributor.
3. FRIENDS
I have so many beautiful friends in my life right now and I love that I don't have to see them everyday to be happy to see them. I also want the opportunity to date and relish the moments of enjoying someone's company.
I don't believe that good relationships start with a hook-up or a drunken evening. You have to get to know someone and become friends first.
Those same butterflies I get during comedy are the butterflies I want when I write a piece or see my friends or my date when I'm out...
So, honestly, friends, I guess what I can say as part of breaking the silence, I also want to break some habits.
I want to enjoy life for real. Not just on the internet or behind the chair. I have built a brand for 8 years now and will continue to do so (it comes easy to me!), but I want to start enhancing the intimate areas in my life....
How bad could that be?
Not bad at all, I say.
-J
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