Good evening Rockstars + Lambs!
Whew! What an amazing eight months it has been. Tonight, I'm sipping a cup of coffee and took the time to re-read the last Volume of "Pretty World, Fabulous Life". I have to say, we started out with some drama and little bitches talking mad shit, had some calm moments, some highs, some more talk and some more lows... although, as I re-read my own words, I can see growth on a personal level.
I have blogged heavily for the last five years, won awards for them and even gotten in trouble for them. This last volume of "Pretty World, Fabulous Life" was THE MOST spread out volume. I generally used to write once or twice a week and these days, it's maybe twice a month...
I'm learning that feeding the drama online means nothing. It doesn't elevate me to a higher spiritual plane and I don't feel like fueling the fire of internet gossip anymore.
As I settle in for my Volume 2 hiatus, I wanted to take the time to affirm the following lessons for you that I have learned in the last year and half of blogging about my life as a salon owner.
LESSON 1: Diet
-eight months ago, I went 90% gluten-free, began juicing and working out. Eight months later, I feel better than I ever have and am in better shape than I have been in a long time. I have learned also, that inviting others to dinner is not my priority. I love cooking, eating alone and even look forward to eating a salad. That is something I don't think I would have ever said. Tonight at Mother's Day dinner, I looked forward to a large salad. Pinch me!
LESSON 2: Friendships
-I can literally count my trusted individuals on one hand and even then, THEY have the ability to disappoint me. What I've learned is that no body is perfect. No one! When you start to pick apart people's attitudes, its time to have some distance.
LESSON 3: The Power of four
-There are two people I will drop anything for and two others that are always there for me. They don't need to be named and I will not exploit them online. What you should know is that I don't believe in sharing this precious group with the world as the world influences everything via social media these days. To protect THEM sand ME, I write stories, but very rarely mention names. It's for my safety and my heart's safety that we don't get too specific.
LESSON 4: Distance and Silence
-I love being Garbo and vanishing from online, person, public appearances, phone calls and replying to messages. For some, they have categorized me as withdrawn and a snob, but truly. I get more done, not feeding the beast known as the public.
LESSON 5: I am not meant to be in love.
-I attempted earlier this year and have pined for the same person in the past and to this day, still do. Nope. We're done. It's time for them to seek ME out. If that means I'll be lonely forever, then, I prefer it that way. I would much rather be alone that chase a passive-aggressive long-distance relationship or a promiscuous person I find attractive. I'm not cheap or low rent, I am HIGH END real estate as far as I'm concerned. I'm worth more than a broken heart or night of ejaculations. (sorry to be so graphic) LOL
LESSON 6: California
-Cali taught me that I can make it anywhere. Cali also taught me that famous doesn't make you special or classy. Cali doesn't mean you're richer, prettier or thinner than me either.
LESSON 7: Privacy
-I'm working on alot of projects. You don't need to know with whom I'm working and frankly, you don't give a shit. No one funds my company, I do. I am self-made and continue to be. So, I can disclose what I want or move on without mentioning a word...
LESSON 8: The internet is full of haters.
-I can't even keep track of the feuds. What you should know is- I do NOT always take the high road and if YOU tweet me negative shit, I will probably retweet and reply. If you talk shit on Facebook, I will probably screen cap it and make you own up to it. Also, if you want to approach me in public, you had better be ready for a verbal smackdown.
LESSON 9: I don't need YOU to complete ME.
-I've said once and will say it again, my clientele is my most important asset. I am proud to be a working stylist, a business owner and will strive to be better. I don't need a partner or my loved ones to support me. It's nice if they do, but I'm a solo act. I will always make the best decisions for me even when others do not agree.
Finally, my loves... as I settle in for a hiatus, I want to tell you. I am in a good spot. I need time to think about things... I need to go for walks, be away from people and re-prioritize WHO and WHAT matters. If you cannot lift me up to shine, I cannot reciprocate. If all you have is critiques of me and my character, please kindly walk away. If you are a flake that makes promises and cannot follow through, we will never do business together, break bread or be friends.
I'm alright being solo. I prefer it...
Let's see what this summer brings.
Josh
