Happy Chanukah, Happy Christmas, Happy Boxing Day, Happy New Year to you all!
I have to tell you all that this year was whirlwind of change and accomplishments on another level. I can't even begin to think about what made this year so special, but it was very transformative.
I always looks back on blogs posted approximentally a year prior and compare where I was a year before. I do this TWICE a year. The first at Rosh Hashanah and then again at the traditional New Year after Christmas Day has passed.
What I find is that all my spiritual tasks and mindsets are reset during Rosh Hashanah as they should be and that I go through a three-and-a-half month transformation during the High Holy Days, secular and Christian holidays that gets me off-course a bit and teaches me more about myself than most lessons studied in text books.
This past three-and-a-half months have taught me about forgiveness and how to be completely bare and open with truth that lies underneath each word, each deed and each person's interaction with me.
I feel like there has been a calm period in my life for once in my life and that I owe most of the credit to myself, really, for shutting up and listening to God and The Universe and telling everyone else to go fly a kite.
I have separated, I have dated, I have been broken, I have fallen in love and STILL maintained a successful business, grown my business and learned to take time for me... FINALLY!!
1. This year was the big separation from Andrew after six years of friendship and many arguments and many intellectual talks that has left me wanting to never speak to him ever again. He's not a priority. He is who he is. I don't ever want to rekindle that connection as friends. It's okay. Really.
2. I dated this year for once in my life when I always relied on never giving anyone any chances and realized that even after giving chances, some people are just unsure of what they want in life. I can't help those people and after falling in love, I can say that the lesson lies in "moving on".
I'm so glad I took the opportunity to date, really. I wouldn't have been open to The Mister if I hadn't.
3. I am the king of what it feels like to be broken. Broken is okay. Melancholy kind of feels good, but being broken for more than three days and constant despair is a bad look on anyone. I have learned this by watching my own family members suffer from depression that causes anger and denial. I don't want to be that person at all unless someone passes away and even then, I have learned there is a dawn to all the darkness.
4. This year I fell in deep down, true, passionate love. Who knew cynical, judgmental, sarcastic me would ever fall in love? Well, it happened. I also learned that if you want to love someone fully you have to FULLY be available to them. I love him, he loves me, it's been a beautiful transition and my life has changed... for the better.
5. Business grew RIDICULOUSLY this year! For once, I was able to give presents I wanted at Christmas, donate to charity, donate to political campaigns and sponsor events without blinking. Well, maybe I blinked, but I wrote the check and moved on. Things were very good at the salon, the blog world calmed down a bit as I took time to branch out into comedy performances, podcasts and juggling an active and selective social life on my terms this year.
6. For once, I learned how to take time for me. Yes, time for ME! The main struggle in my life has been taking time for ME. Years of writing, touring, doing hair, owning a brand, owning a location, performing and public speaking left me with nearly NO TIME in my twenties, but to drink when I was bored and take part in irritating feuds with peasants.
I have no time for that. I have a successful business, live as a successful writer and performer, am sought-after and have learned to dip out of the social scene from time to time because I needed to.
This year as taught me to value me more and to live by the following philosophy when someone crosses you:
"THEY ARE NOT MY PROBLEM TO HAVE."
Time to move into 2015 with The Mister, a new living arrangement (he's moving in) and focus on growing my Rocktars and Lambs, LTD empire.
Look out 2015, I'm flexing my creative muscle this year!
xoxo - j.